As you know, I've been struggling a lot so far. Almost every food I eat (or smell!) makes me sick - sometimes violently so. I'm exhausted all the time, even if I nap during the course of the day. After having two daughters already, and the son I lost in between them, I know full well that these two things should ease up some by the time I hit 12 weeks - so halfway there! I'm not even looking towards "the end" at this point. I'm taking things one day at a time, and taking care of myself the best I possibly can. I haven't told even Mike how bad it's been. What good will it do me to whine about how many times I throw up, or how tired I am? How will it help either of us if I complain about how wretched I feel half the time? It makes me feel a little better to simply ignore some of that, and try to focus on positive things.
I did some research last night on foods that I should be able to eat, and what do you know - it helps! I am able to eat oatmeal, plain chicken (no seasonings), cereal, toast, poached eggs, and a few other things now without fear of being sick. Yay! That's a huge accomplishment. I've now lost 14 pounds. However, if you know me, you know that that is not an amount that will harm me. I'm also going this weekend to buy some SlimFast... don't freak! It's not to help lose weight, but to supplement what I can eat, and give me extra vitamins and things that my body needs right now.
Mike and I have been having so much fun the past couple of nights. No matter what we're doing, one or both of us ends up on some website or another that sells baby things. We've already started a couple of registries, in order to keep track of the items we like/want/need. It brought tears to my eyes when my "manly man" sweetheart showed me the gorgeous pink Hello Kitty Princess baby crib set we need to buy our baby if we're blessed with a girl.
Through all of the tough days I've been having, Mike has been my rock and my strength. He makes me laugh over silly things, just when I need a good chuckle. He tells me he loves me out of the blue, because he just knows that I need to hear the words. He brings tears to my eyes, knowing how happy and excited he is about this whole journey. Knowing that he is so in love with our child already is amazing to me, and humbling beyond belief.
With both of my girls, their fathers weren't "part" of the whole pregnancy - nor really their lives. I went to appointments alone. I shopped alone. I set up nurseries alone. I went through labor alone (well, there were nurses and a doctor there!). Neither Gary nor Tony really gave a crap about any of it. The difference is night and day... Mike wants to know it all, experience it all, BE HERE for every moment - every step of the way. That makes me love him even more, if that is possible. The connection we have always had from day one has gotten so much stronger because of this pregnancy.
Sick or not - exhausted or not - I am quite possibly the luckiest woman on the face of the earth. I love you, sweetheart.
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